I send an email to my ex-boyfriend. Today is his 50th birthday. It's just about three years since he dumped me. He told me terrible lies, that he had been going to church with a male friend, that on the day I had off from both my jobs, he had gone to see a Methodist pastor who told him we were fornicating, and that he was breaking up with me so he could dedicate himself to Christ. Problem is, the male friend has never been to church with him, wasn't back with his old girlfriend, and wasn't marring her, (why Brad told me those lies, I will never fathom). And the Methodist pastor? I think Brad was out with my replacement, who he was already dating. And then he told me I was a whore like, 8, 11 times. Yes, about 6 weeks later, my sister ran into the male friend that Brad said he had be going to church with, and guess what? All the things Brad had said about him were lies, but he had been to Brad's house since Brad dumped me and, Brad hadn't said anything about being born again, but Brad had shown him a picture of his new girlfriend who Brad had met though her sister, whom he had met at a Elks lodge dance. All while cheating on me. He and my sister sat down and figured out that Brad had been cheating on me for at least 3 weeks before he dumped me. Why didn't he just tell me he didn't want to see me anymore? Why mind rape me?
So I send him a email.. And I called him names, and told him he was damaged goods and damned. And, oh ya, that I wanted him to kill himself, because we all be so better off with him dead. Poorly written of course. A restraining order will be the least of my worries.
I promptly regretted it as soon as I send it. Maybe I will be lucky and he will delete without reading it.
What I really want, is something I can't get: an apology, and an explanation.
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