I'm Depressed

I talked to my sister today. It was a rather short conversation as it derailed, when she told me that at Sherry's (Mitzi's sister) house, Sherry's brother-in-law extended an Thanksgiving invitation. They would like to accept it. This means there will be no family gathering this year for me, as they will be be going to the condo in Costa Ricca for Christmas.
I have to face facts. My sister is drifting away from me, and there doesn't seem to be anything I can do to stop it. She doesn't seem to want to spend time with me or talk to me. I'm being closed out. I don't know why. I don't feel like there's anyone I can talk to anymore.

Also, after Mitzi's service, my sister told me that Brad was making overtures to my Brother-in-law through Sherry's husband. He wants to be friends with them again and my Brother-in-law wants to do it. My sister says that the Brother-in-law misses Brad. Well, so do I, but I can't ever associate with him again after he mind-raped me, now can I. Exactly what does Brad have to do, to be Person-Non-Grata? Does he have to have sex with my sister? Would that do it? What makes him so wonderful and me so worthless?Apparently I have very little value with my brother-in-law. Because it would be very stupid indeed, to put me in a situation where I meet Brad in a social setting at my sister's house. The results would be very bad for everybody.

I'm pretty pissed off right now. I don't know if the way I feel right now is hormonal, or what. I'm just going to sit on myself for a while and see how things go and how I feel about them.