Having Problems With The Internet

The Verizon tech had to come out. It seems my modem is going out. This is the first time I've been on the Internet in three days. He said it would come and go. I will be getting a new one by FedEx. This has been an eternity to me. Oh it is so embarrassing. The house is absolutely filthy, cluttered with bags of stuff I've been sorting out from the radio room and while I'm at it, I've admit to being a stacker. The computer desk is awash with paper and clothes. Thank God I have been tying to train myself to put my filthy underwear in the bathroom.
First Maria and now the tech. . . I am working on the house. Today took first load of books to library, and some stuff to the Salvation Army. Arranged for them to come and get the water bed frame.

I also called up the dump and arranged for them to take away the arm chair, which is so stinky from cat pee that the cats won't even lie on it any more. The last of the water bed coverings will also go, as well as Daddy's framed map of the world complete with his contact pins. I have no use for it. I feel very guilty about that, but I NEED to get rid of the filth and clutter in this house.

Yes, I realize that the only thing left in the house for sitting on will be the chair I'm sitting in. I will start a fund for new futons mattresses, and mean while I will start looking for a $50.00 used couch.

I look forward to my barren CLEAN house that only minimally smells of cat pee.

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Mr. Traffic has called me several times and left voice mail. I can't bring myself to talk to him. I know I should. I miss him, but I'm not putting up with the universe as seen through sex view point of his. I don't want to be felt up. I don't want to hear about how he and his wife enjoyed "Deep Throat". I don't want to hear about his sexual adventures. I'm not his girlfriend. I was suppose to be his friend, not what ever it is in his mind that says it's alright to say these things to me.

I keep thinking about that picture. Where was he and what were they doing that he was able to take nude pictures of his two daughter? Where was his wife? Who was the third girl in the photo? How did her parents feel about him doing that and having the picture published?