I got a assumption of service agreement for M (ex-Best Friend) to fill out. After that it will just be a matter of getting her boxes over to her apartment. She has tried to contact me. She did leave a voice mail the day Goosie was found, but apparently she was holding a hairdryer to the phone as she talked. She tried calling yesterday and I didn't pick up and she didn't leave voice mail. Well, today she has called three times, (I left my phone at home as I did errands) and she did leave a voice mail. Still somewhat distorted, she wants to know if I'm okay. Like, why would she care?
I won't be the first friend she has lost. She had a friend from the previous library up and bail on her with no word. Could it be the endless negativity? I have taken a lot of abuse from her. Like recently she commented that she hated the dark hairs on her forearms. I told her, that I too, hate the hair on my arms. She promptly snarled that my hairs were light. In other words, what did I have to complain about? What she doesn't know, is that I pluck all my dark hairs out, and have for years! But of course, her angst is the only thing that is revalent .She is so convinced that everything is so horrible, it doesn't matter what she has, the grass is ALWAYS greener on the other side. I believe that even if she won the lottery, she would find something bad about that as well.I don't think she will ever be happy. Nothing will ever be good enough for her and the life she was suppose to have.
It just isn't that she wouldn't get Goosie, it's the negativity, the feeling that I am peripheral in her life, and that I'm not "cool". That she only talks to me to be able to "prove" how much more with it and smarter then me she is. In other words, to put me down. And she does do that all the time now. So, it's time for me to move on.
Which is really sad, considering how long we were friends, and how much we have in common.
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