I'm Cold. . .

And I have highbeams. I have turned the heater off to save money. Also all of the lights.

I have looked at my money situation, and I'm fucked either way. If I get the unemployment, I may be able to pay the utilities. If I don't, everything I make at the pizza place is going to go to the car payment and car insurance, so I can WORK. Whatever is left over will go to food for me and the cats. I have about $220.00 to pay my utilities, Gas, House Phone/Internet, Cell Phone, Electric, and each is over a hundred dollars. Yes, I have been having trouble paying them before I lost my job. There's no way I can pay my credit cards either way, so I will be defaulting on them.

I have called up the utilities, and I can get in to some programs, but that doesn't take care of this month's bills. Also there is a small chance that some organization will help me pay the gas. I will call them Monday.

I guess I'll be going over to Grace Resources and asking about stuff like this and food.

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Have been calling the Unemployment check line, and for a while I thought I was going to get a check, but then realized that what the recording was referencing, was my last pay check from the pizza place.

Monday, I am going to spent four hours calling places, looking for a job, (after I deal with the utilities).

Saw The Doctor

It's muscle strain, from dancing to video's on demand on cable. NOT a clot. Never got around to mentioning anything else. The doctor only has like five minutes to spend with me, so concentrated on main problem. She told me not to go to gym, but hey, think I will disobey. I'll find something to do there. I will obey the 30 minute limit she imposed however.

Well, have to go to the doctor.

My right calf has been swollen for a while. Like . . .two months? I had convinced myself that it wasn't swollen, but merely over developed because it's the leg doing all the work, because I crushed the nerves in the other knee in that car accident in '95. But, the swelling is now also in the thigh. Also I have a dull pain underneath my rib cage on the left side. It's basically in the same place as the gal balder pain but on the other side. I also have some numbness/tingles on the left shouter, but not all the time.
It's not like the leg hurts. But now, and only now, it feels cold to the touch and it feels cold inside for me, like I have ice on it. If I had any brains I would go now. However, I can't afford to miss my shift at the pizza place. Ah, the economics of being poor.

It's funny, two days ago the best friend bought me a 15 month membership to a gym. Hopefully I'll get to go.