This is What I USED to look like

I was twenty-five. It's not what I look like NOW! Of course I am more than twice HER age now. When I re-discovered this picture whiles looking for my birth certificate, I did not recognize myself, that's how much I don't look like this any more. I am FAAAAT. 200 pounds!!

Gravity has taken it's toll, and all the dangley bits (as well as some NON-dangley bits like my neck)have gone south. This is depressing. Is it possible for me to become pretty again?

I was fucking skinny and beautiful and I never realized it. Horridly, I want to eat myself senseless in response.

P.S. This is the only real picture you will ever see of me. I value my anonymity.

Applied For Job I would Like To Have,

or at least sent them my resume. The job add says, class C driver licence (check), know how to read a Thomas guide (check), and willing to get dirty moving, lifting and emptying trash cans all day (check). I figure it's the shelter clean people. It's ten dollars an hour!

I might have a chance at this job, as long as they discount the van backing accident! I don't know how that will count. Probably badly.

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BBC has cancelled Survivors. Bastards! They are still advertising the very last show as the SEASON finale. Also, it's STILL being advertised as the hit series. Yes, it's so "hit" that BBC has cancelled because the ratings are too low for BBC One. I bet there are TONS of people who think it's going to come back because of their misleading adverts, and will wonder, crushed, what happened to the show, and because of the false adverts they won't have a chance to mount a campaign to save it in time, (it might already be too late)!

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Dr. Who has managed to make me cry.

I have no idea what I have done with my taxes!

Called sis-in-law in Florida. She is a tax preparer. She said not to worry. A. even if the fed hit me for late filing the fine will only be like ten cents. B. the state tax might be more nasty, and if they complain, she will write a letter for me.
She also told me that it was OK that I oops and paid the feds 28.00 instead of 28.08. Yes, can't read own hand writing.
If only I hadn't added a one dollar contribution to the state. I'm not sure how that will work out.

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I found this nifty web site last night, about. . . fingernail polish! It's dedicated to her favorite brand Misa, but she "cheats" and uses other brands as well. The best part? She's totally into sparkly purple nail polish just like me, and has short nails. http://www.misamasa.blogspot.com/

Redid Taxes

Yes, screwed up on work credit. I'm not getting a refund on the fed tax. I have to pay $28.00. Now, that might not seem much to YOU, but for me it's a lot, especially since I have to pay a state tax of $179.00. On unemployment, that's a lot of moola to give up.

I have to call up my college loan people and make some kind of deal with them. I've already used up my deferments. BF friend suggested a hardship deferment. So, that's what I'm going to shoot for. Then I have to call my store cards and get a payment plan.

Next month, car tax. ($125)

And then I get to do that jury duty down in LA. Must email unemployment people to find out how that's going to effect me.

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Getting weird acne. Stress? Menopause? Something contaminating the shower at the gym? Who knows. I'm as greasy as all hell. Dying my hair did nothing for it. Usually stops the grease in it's tracks. That was 50% of why I dyed my hair blond. Dying it brunette doesn't stop the grease apparently.

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Called up Lenscrafter. Account is now closed, and I get to pay $10.00 at 9% for the next 9 months. I assume my credit rating is going to take another hit. Also called up college loan people. I have used up all my deferment before this, all I have left is THE UNEMPLOYMENT DEFERMENT! They are mailing the forms to me. If approved, it will be good for six months.

God knows what it's going to be like when I have to buy a new car. Probably have to get my sister to cosign. . .

Today, I prepared my taxes!

I thought I was going to have to do the installment plan, for the Fed and state taxes, but no!!! I'm actually going to get a REFUND from the Fed's and have to pay 179 to the state. This is the first time I have gotten a refund since I was 25! I have checked my figures twice, and they are coming out the same. So, the plan is, to pay the state and call up the various credit card people and get on payment plans. Also call up the college loan people and see if I can get on a hardship deferment.

On the plus side, I called up the auto loan people and I only have $145.00 left to pay on the car. After that, I can devote the car payment to paying the credit card bills.

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I have very high blood pressure right now. I keep getting dizzy. I have taken my last Antentol, but only one pill. Really, it's just a placebo. I'll be better off taking aspirin, but I'm out.

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Today is the day, my friend Bob should get on his knees and say a prayer for his great aunt. You see Bob's family emigrated from Ireland. . . .by ship. Guess which one they were suppose to come on? The Titanic! But his great aunt (Mary?) had the measles. Remember the beginning of Titanic where Jack is getting on, and below him is a line of people getting inspected? That's what happen. They weren't allowed to board. They came to America, via the Carpathia , and picked up survivors from the Titanic on the way. The family gave the children of Mary the tickets for the Titanic, since her measles saved them. They still have them to this day, in a bank vault in Niagara.

Yes, Another Earthquake!

I was over at the BF's apartment, showing her pictures of Max Beesley and Daniel Craig on the Internet. This was in retaliation for showing me her picture of Marcus Deegan from Thunder down Under in Las Vegas. Yes, she saw the show while she was in Vegas celebrationing her 34th birthday. I was aware that she had gone to a stripper show as she send me a very drunken text, (misspelled!) about the HOT stripper! Just before her companion got Marcus to KISS her!

Well anyway, I was showing her MY pictures of my lust objects, when I felt the earth move. I said "Quake!" About 1/2 second later, BF said "Earthquake!" We got up and moved in to her hallway. Mentally I was cursing that she lives on the second floor. What if it was the big one?

It was a very gentle one, (because it was centered in Mexico, many, many hundreds of miles away, even if it was a 7.2). It was gentle waves, and lasted about half a minute. BF thought it stopped about half way through. I knew it hadn't. I'm quite sensitive to earthquakes. I also had the salt headache, from eating too much popcorn at the movies. So, I was getting seasick from the earthquake. If it had lasted much longer, I would have vomited.

BF moved to her apartment landing and said she could see all of the neighbor's blinds swaying back and forth. We then started watching the news and found out how big it was and where it was located at, which accounts for no freight train noise. For you who do not live in earthquake country, an earthquake derived from a fault line near you will sound like an freight train roaring up your driveway, just before it hits.

A strong one, will make the cupboard doors snap open and shut, while the house creaks. My childhood bed had casters on it, and my sister and I rode our beds across the our bedroom, back and forth, during one in the 70's. I have been caught on the toilet during one, and this was after the movie Earthquake, and I was afraid the toilet would start shooting out water like in the movie. I tried desperately to get off, but by the time I had got off, pulled up my pants, and started to move out of the bathroom, it was over.

The ones that happen while I'm asleep in bed, are the worse, because, when they happen, I end up in the door way, but my glasses are still on the nightstand. I can't do anything with out my glasses. I'm way blind. If I had to leave the house, or the house became damaged, I would be screwed. Also, no shoes, and if I had to find them with out the glasses. . .

And, there was another one in the ring of fire. Something going to happen, or is happening. Maybe it's because of global warming?